yes. I love it when I wake up and my kitchen table is covered in equal parts eating untensils and metallurgy tools.

so. is there untapped power in being ignorant? I can’t stop thinking about this type of shit, since I got into a huge argument with one of my professors towards the end of school. if you accept the possibility that stereotypes spread like disease, than maybe only ignorance can unmake them. I don’t know. the fight we got into was because he kept talking about how completely unconcionably awful contemporary media is, particularly television. my point was that he is complicit in its awfulness cuz he sits there and watches it. unfortunately I sounded like one of those whiny pseudointellectual “I don’t watch TV” guys, but this was not my aim I swear.

one thing about that that I brought up at the time was how in high school, for this psychology class, we saw a video about some of the common 20th-century stereotypes that have been applied to black people. a great many of the stereotypes I saw portrayed in the video were ones I hadn’t been exposed to in my life prior to that point, and it pissed me off and saddened me that I had been quote-unquote infected with them by a tool that was designed to promote awareness of the steretypes in question with their eradication in mind. that didn’t matter cuz they were stuck in my head anyway, for better or for worse. I hate that shit.

meh. anyway. I’m not one of those “I don’t watch TV guys”. I have proof. when I haven’t been working my ass off on the bullshit art projects depicted above, I’ve been watching 24 like a total ass. if I had an actual TV I would watch it on the TV, rather than a computer, so that must count for something. yes.

now I must carve linoleum. pray that I don’t take a finger off. yes yes!

-fish