so yeah. I was looking around online for results for “I’m just kidding like jason” to see if it was secretly a reference to jayson blair (which of course it isn’t) and I found myself traversing the personal sites of a bunch of random high school kids. this was quite illuminating, because a large percentage of the ones I saw had extremely inventive designs, all of which were neatly implemented with the latest acronyms (css, xhtml, stfu, blablabla). they weren’t perfect, of course, but the volume of stuff that was good in an eyebrow-raising way was much higher than you’d think. they’d talk about normal stuff (“OMG history class is SOOOO BORING”) and casually throw in the fact that they’d redone their xanga or whatever blog sites in stanards-compliant css2/xhtml1.1 or what have you.

on one hand, this was great, cuz it’s like “hahaha all you high-horse css zealot wankerbots are going to be EATEN ALIVE by the children in just a matter of time; please stoppit with the inflammatory geek rhetoric and report to the nearest mickey d’s for retraining” … plus yes yes of course it is always great to see people expressing themselves creatively. right. also it was phenominally depressing cuz I really, really couldn’t do that type of shit at that age. I was very nerdy and I did all sorts of nerd things, so maybe yeah if there was such a thing as css back then, maybe I would have been able to tell you a thing or two about it. who’s to say. but creating anything of any sort was never (and indeed is not) something I could do casually. I always get worked up in some way, internally, and the impression that I got from paging through these weirdly amazing kids’ sites was that they did not have this problem.

aaaahhh. yes. bleah. I’m sure it’s fucking with me more than it would be normally, cuz I’m about to start “art school,” and as such I can’t stop thinking about this type of shit. note that I am not linking in the high school kids’ sites cuz that would just fuck with me more, yes.

but yeah. this also is why I am sick of code: it seems to me to be a big fat waste of time. kids will just eat you up. and who wants that? no one, I’d wager.

anyway yeah. it’s friday and so that’s what I’m doing, here in my apartment, on a friday night. maybe tomorrow I can begin to assemble some sort of social life, as I’m going to meet all the other grads for drinks at some bar somewhere. we’ve all been passing around emails and it looks like they’re just as bored as me. I bet they all have nice non-damaged computers, tho, so harrumph.

ok yeah. enough. I will go read a nice book now. cheers to you!

-fish

generally, older adults work very hard to oppress children, incarcerate them into “educational” institutions, and otherwise maintain their second-class status because they all unconsciously know one immutable fact of history: KIDS ARE SMARTER THAN YOU WILL EVER HOPE TO BE.

this applies to us all, in perpetuity. our telomeres define our planned obsolescence specifically to prevent older humans competing for resources with younger humans.

at the same time, around middle-age those “kids” also unconsciously remember how badly the previous adult class treated them, and subsequently run the aged through a gamut of torturous medical procedures for their own scientific gain.

my plan: undermine the authority of adults now and curry the favor of our future child overlords early before they put me in a cut-rate nursing home and insist on keeping me alive all the while i can’t wipe my own ass and possess only vague memories of having an erection.

-z